Moral Letters to Lucilius Section 5

Videbit ubi victurus sit, cum quibus, quomodo, quid acturus. Cogitat semper, qualis vita, non quanta sit. Si multa occurrunt molesta et tranquillitatem turbantia, emittit se. Nec hoc tantum in necessitate ultima facit, sed cum primum illi coepit suspecta esse fortuna, diligenter circumspicit, numquid ideo desinendum sit. Nihil existimat sua referre, faciat finem an accipiat, tardius fiat an citius. Non tamquam de magno detrimento timet; nemo multum ex stilicidio potest perdere.

Il décidera où il lui faut vivre, avec qui, comment, dans quel rôle : ce qui l’occupe, c’est quelle sera sa vie, jamais ce qu’elle durera. Est-il assailli de disgrâces qui bouleversent son repos, il quitte la place, et n’attend pas pour le faire que la nécessité soit extrême ; mais du jour où la Fortune lui devient suspecte, il examine, non sans scrupule, s’il ne doit pas dès lors cesser d’être. « Qu’importe, dit-il, que je me donne la mort ou que je la reçoive, que je finisse plus tôt ou plus tard ? je n’ai pas là grand dommage à craindre. » On ne perd pas grand’chose à voir fuir tout d’un coup ce qui échappait goutte à goutte.

He will mark in what place, with whom, and how he is to conduct his existence, and what he is about to do. He always reflects concerning the quality, and not the quantity, of his life. As soon as there are many events in his life that give him trouble and disturb his peace of mind, he sets himself free. And this privilege is his, not only when the crisis is upon him, but as soon as Fortune seems to be playing him false; then he looks about carefully and sees whether he ought, or ought not, to end his life on that account. He holds that it makes no difference to him whether his taking-off be natural or self-inflicted, whether it comes later or earlier. He does not regard it with fear, as if it were a great loss; for no man can lose very much when but a driblet remains.